Crazy Love Yesterday and Today

 Yesterday, I got an email from our adoption agency asking us if we could give them an approximate date that our dossier {all the legal paperwork} would be ready for Chin@. Our pre-approval for Asher expires on the 13th {that would be tomorrow, folks} and they need to apply for an extension for us since we are still working on our dossier.  The email read that Chin@ is being less lenient with granting extensions these days.  That was a little upsetting to say the least, but it didn't really rattle me, especially since I emailed with her again and she made it clear that we would get an extension, they just needed some dates to apply for it.  Whew! 

But, I did get my cage rattled yesterday. 

Well, it's like this....I got to figuring up how many weeks it will take us to get everything ready for that dossier, and it looks like we will be ready in the next 4 to 5 weeks!  Great, right?  Except that means that 4 to 5 weeks from now, We need to have $6500 in our account to pay the fees required to send a dossier to Chin@!  And 3 to 5 months after that, we are going to need about $20,000 to travel to Asher and bring him home!  After we have already paid out $5593 to get our dossier papers together! 

And that had me rattled to my core. 

For a little while, anyway. 

Then my husband called.  I pounced on him!  And do you know what that man said to me?  That wonderful, crazy, amazing husband of mine!  He said to stop worrying.  He said that God is in control of this, as always.  And, that He would provide for this adoption, just as He provided for the last one.  We will use everything we have, to prove our faithfulness, and God?  He'll show up!  Then he told me to go pray and cut this out! 

So I did.  And God reminded me of all the ways, even just this week, that He has provided for us.  I needed some supplies to do some homeschooling things and had no money to purchase them.  First another mom posted on a homeschool loop that she was giving away some of the things I just said I needed.  So I went and got them.  Then  while I was looking for something else, I came across all the other items I needed, right here in my very own house.....and I have no idea when I acquired these things or where they came from! But, I ended up with everything I needed. 

Today, I was reading blogs.  The same blogs I always read.  And, I came across this post by Linny at A Place Called Simplicity.   Linny is an amazing, homeschooling, adoptive Mama with a heart. for. God. And in this latest Crazy Love #5 post, she is helping those in the adoption process raise money to complete these adoptions!

And I am left in awe of my God.  Because for some time now I have wrestled with the idea of putting a "donate" button on our blog.  But {gulp},  that would mean actually admitting to all of you, that I need help.  And {sigh}, I am not good at that.  Actually, I'm terrible at it.  But, after my prayers yesterday and today, I now know that this is what God wants me to do.  He wants some one, or many some ones to have the chance to reach out to us.  Or others on the behalf of orphans.  Because if you head over to Linny's blog and check out her Crazy Love #5 post, you will find many ways you can help the orphan! 

As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.  And the Lord has asked us to bring home orphans.  He will provide the means to do it.  We just have to trust him to prove it!  If you feel lead to be a part of that, feel free to use the donate button on the right, and know that every penny will be used to bring Asher home.